Grief Defined


We just blinked. That’s how fast life can change. There are certain markers in life where we can document where we changed as a person, maybe for the good, and sometimes for the bad. My Dad’s sudden death at the age of fifty-five has caused another pain marker in my life, but has cultivated a…

Maturity Somewhat Loading…


I always thought that expressing your heart and being more of an emotional person was the way I wanted to be in life. My feelings are hurt! Everyone must know! To me, this exemplified a certain strength within myself, but now I wonder if it made me weak? Now I see that I do not…

Beauty Without PAIN


Everything was just erased, and then it started to rain. It only solidified what was not meant to be. The only constant is me. I only cry to my Mama,  you will never see a tear from me. I have to stop all this stressing, these new bitches, they messy, got me doubting my foundation,…

30 Is Dirty


True to cliché’ form, all of the light bulbs are blinking. At thirty, I am finally letting my brain run things. Yes, I was dumb before because I had too much of my heart in it. People lash out because their feelings are hurt. I had my feelings hurt. The older I get I realize…

Depression Abscess


The bricks keep being laid. I sleep in my comfort zone, my darkness and I see a foundation forming that was not meant for me. Bricks of addiction. Bricks of overindulgence. Bricks of insecurity. Then I wake, and the way of the world has formed a prison for me. I can stay here. With my…

Smoke Signals


    The chaos was too excessive. Two fiery energies bouncing from wall to wall. I will have the tit and you will have the tat. Love should be a haven of protection, instead we became cloaked in war. Many times before I thought that love was a game, then I see what has all…

Stripped


  Auntie asked me what I am numbing. It is time to sort through the dark mess that I have made. Bad habits. Shortcomings. Looking for others to complete me, without substantiating a foundation of who “me” means. There is still time. I have always been fighting for others not to leave me or not…

What Will Grow?


  Damn. It’s something about getting older. I always feel like I step outside self and finally see things for what they are. Painful light bulb moments. Love actually dies. Friendships evolve, sometimes for the good and for the bad. It is okay to be alone to discover who you are, but I always feared…

Your Own Fairy Tale


I grew up during the era of Disney princesses. Maybe we are bred to believe in a love that surpasses all trials, tragedies, and tough happenings. What are the odds of Simba running into Nahla after so many years and still having that deep connection? Your true love’s kiss could even reverse death in Snow Whites’…

The Doll


Thank you for the unnecessary purchase. I am here to serve and look vapid. Soon, your life will become mine. My purpose will become clouded, you will constantly supply the fog. At first, I accompany you with self-fulfillment, yes, I aim to please. Then dust starts to form. There is a doll prettier than me….